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this is so frustrating. i havent felt so tired for so long. did the same thing tday. listened those nice chinese songs and walked home. just that tday didnt have cars horning at me. thought through so much. and i realised i promised my dad to dispel distractions but i havent actually been putting it into practice. grrrr.

i know there's so much to do. there's so much to prepare. and i dont knw whether i'm really up to it. i've gt a dinner starting in 2 hours. i havent changed or bathed or prepared anything yet. i'm supposed to be in smart/formal wear. but i was thinking of going in jeans. saw jilyn this morning and she was shocked i'm wearing jeans. okayy. i'll wear my ONLY denim skirt that sucks.

i needa get my personal statement out by this weekend. i need to read through ALL the gp stuff. i need to register for BMAT. i need to fill in my cambridge and UCAS form. i'll start nw. and have to stop in 20 mins time to bathe then prepare. PLUS. i want to do my bio and chem mcqs. do my revision. set out a plan alr. but then again. i dont think it'll work that well.

why. why isit i cant apply for the college of my choice. why isit we must have the same wavelength. it sucks. urghhh. why didnt i go and BEG for half marks or one and a half marks so that i can get my grade As. so that things wont be the way it is nw. why is qisheng nt replying my mail. he'll have advice la. grrr. prob still at orientaton for duke. and JEM ng is nt replying my mail too. rahhhhhhhhh.

last day of school. nthing special or what. just rush to photocopy stuff after school. and my photocopy card has no more money. bleah. forgot to change again. talking about photocopying. class fund is seriously in trouble. it's going to become negative again. and i left class fund on my table tday. terrific thing i did -.- i have to pay for batch directory and teachers' day presents with the remaining 130. gd luck.

i'm becoming so angsty. hrmp.

ahhhhhhh. what happened to this chapter

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